heragony
Her Agony .
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Very confidential letters by a faith full to her confession father and to her spiritual counselor , found way to the open world which is un- ethical and never supposed to be made public
and against the high spiritual values , going round the visual and print media after ten years of her death making flutter and sensation . But, if we go through the fine print of the texts of the letters there is nothing
controversial or nothing to sensationalize . In her youth full age, Mother Theresa was a teacher for seventeen long years . But she was thinking teaching was not her calling and she was disturbed in her heart
after some sickness she was convalescing at a distant place from her dwelling . During her annual retreat
in Himalayan foothills her prayers got answer , in her solitude Jesus spoke to her and told her to leave her job and go to the Calcutta slums where the poorest of the poor are living in a condition far below fit for human existence .She joined her mission and found satisfaction and peace of mind and she was doing it in right earnestness . It was reported for more than fifty years after that she never felt the presence of God
she had a darkness in her faith .
I don’t feel any thing very special about it . She was also a human being just like you and me. When she is doing something exemplary well and wiping the tears of the poorest of poor , naturally,
She thought Jesus will appreciate her work and say “well done keep it up” . But it never happened. Just like a CEO after giving instruction to carry out an assignment to his assistant, if he found the instructions
were carrying out correctly he need not go to him every time and say nice things to him . Just like that the master crafts man was looking her from afar and there was no scope for further correction.
But Mother Theresa wanted to hear her menders voice or a pat in the back. But He had other options. The rewards were bestowing on her in various other ways honors including Nobel Price came her way . But she was longing for Jesus voice. God plan was keeping darkness in her heart. But even when the darkness was so great and in one moment she doubted even the existence of God . But she was never an atheist. She wrote “I want the work to remain only His” she wanted only Jesus’ name to come first that is why she wrote “ He must be forcing Himself to do so – because He loves you so much :” the personal love Christ has for you is infinite .
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Very confidential letters by a faith full to her confession father and to her spiritual counselor , found way to the open world which is un- ethical and never supposed to be made public
and against the high spiritual values , going round the visual and print media after ten years of her death making flutter and sensation . But, if we go through the fine print of the texts of the letters there is nothing
controversial or nothing to sensationalize . In her youth full age, Mother Theresa was a teacher for seventeen long years . But she was thinking teaching was not her calling and she was disturbed in her heart
after some sickness she was convalescing at a distant place from her dwelling . During her annual retreat
in Himalayan foothills her prayers got answer , in her solitude Jesus spoke to her and told her to leave her job and go to the Calcutta slums where the poorest of the poor are living in a condition far below fit for human existence .She joined her mission and found satisfaction and peace of mind and she was doing it in right earnestness . It was reported for more than fifty years after that she never felt the presence of God
she had a darkness in her faith .
I don’t feel any thing very special about it . She was also a human being just like you and me. When she is doing something exemplary well and wiping the tears of the poorest of poor , naturally,
She thought Jesus will appreciate her work and say “well done keep it up” . But it never happened. Just like a CEO after giving instruction to carry out an assignment to his assistant, if he found the instructions
were carrying out correctly he need not go to him every time and say nice things to him . Just like that the master crafts man was looking her from afar and there was no scope for further correction.
But Mother Theresa wanted to hear her menders voice or a pat in the back. But He had other options. The rewards were bestowing on her in various other ways honors including Nobel Price came her way . But she was longing for Jesus voice. God plan was keeping darkness in her heart. But even when the darkness was so great and in one moment she doubted even the existence of God . But she was never an atheist. She wrote “I want the work to remain only His” she wanted only Jesus’ name to come first that is why she wrote “ He must be forcing Himself to do so – because He loves you so much :” the personal love Christ has for you is infinite .
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